_________ Fallen Through~

2005-08-26T23:08:00.000+08:00

Met up wif Ho Wai today. . during lunch break. . when long john for lunch. . had a realli long chat as hes heading back to HK tomorrow. . maybe the last time i see him. . mood was realli heavy. . after a while meet up wif raymond and zhi sheng. . when to the open plaza to talk, lame around and blackie brought his digital cam to take some pictures for memories. . zhi sheng help took a few pics for blackie and mi. . haiz. . wish i could stop time for running so fast. . on thinkin blackie is meeting mi for the last time made me feel as thought im gonna break down in any sec. . talking abt blackie. . his one of them who make it to leave a mark in my heart. . the guy that step into my life durin skool days till now. . the one whu brought mi lollipops. .the one whu brought laughter to me. . the one whu guide mi through right and wrong. . the one whu advice mi whu is worth my trust and love and whus not. . .the one whus there for me whenever i need him most. . . seriously dun know what will my life be without him. . scared and lonely. . wont be able to see his number appeared on my cell phone again. . wont be able to hear his laughter again. .how i wish i had a shoulder to lean and cry on. . i need him. . i seriously do. . like my bro, never will i forget u. . will remember the good times we had and all the words u said to me. . . love and miss ya always. .

2005-08-15T12:07:00.000+08:00

Back to blog again. . haven been blogging for a realli long time. . hmmm. . let mi see where i could start. . got a new job at BLUSH!. . sellin lingerie of coz. . been workin almost everyday. . how nice. .but still lucky me got to catch some dudes on the way. . my high cut and square cut. .(its a lil secret between mi and ade). .and my up and down relation wif Jack. . still think hes not my type of guy. . even though he made an effort to call and meet mi everyday. . kinda confused and sad abt him . . but not forgetting i have my two sweetheart wif mi. . ade and rash giving mi their support and advice. . starting to love each of them. . hahaha. . upon hearing ho wai is leaving singapore breaks my heart again. . my gd sister. . the one whu create laughter and happiness in my life. . just like my little nanny. . cant imagine wat my life will be without him. . or should i say her. . hmMp. . when to Jean Yip Hub opening and saw their hair show. . but main motive is to see Anthony of coz. . saw him doin a little demo cutting on stage. . veri impress of his skill. . simply becoz his not anyone else but Anthony. . lolx. . miss my shopping spree too. . haven been shopping seriously for a long time. . i miss it. .

2005-06-20T01:49:00.000+08:00

I've quited my job today. .dono if i should feel happi or upset. . sitting down thinking of the past. .why did i work there in the 1st place. .main motive is to see anthony and patrick. . but now since both has transfer to tampines mall. . dun see the need anymore to stay in that shop which pays low salary. .does not earn. . find it pointless. . but still i miss Vivian, Rash, Florence and Eve. .miss the fun we had together. .but still i cant do anything abt it. . .after the concert den im gonna find a new job again. . ~god bless

2005-05-20T23:47:00.000+08:00

will be meeting Noreen later for lunch and some kinda shopping session. . clever her meet me at some where in the west area. . i was so unfamiliar wif that area so i took a cab down. . realli hate sitting the cab. . da bloody dame smell of cheap leather is trying to make mi puke. . finally im there. . saw Noreen and we took a cab again to Grand Shaghi for lunch. . food there was actualli not bad. . better den i thought. . den took cab again to town area. . motive was to look for bags. . but ended up catching a movie instead. . . den went to look for her bags again. . saw one Fion bag. . i find it veri nice. . kind of trendy and class. . think she can get it to work and shopping as well. . . so told the sales girl to show it to us. . price was even better and nicer. . duh. . but still she's gonna get it. . cool. . den time was getting late and i have to work tomorrow so does she. . both of us headed home and by the way my day was spent mostly in cab,Cab and CAB. . .but im lookin forward to work tomorrow. . Yeah!

2005-05-19T17:37:00.000+08:00

Everytime i see your face, everytime you look my way, it's like it all falls into place,everything feels right. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .but ever since you walked away, you left my life in disarray, all i want is one more day with you. . . . . . . . .

To: XXXXXXX

2005-05-03T20:24:00.000+08:00

I don't know what to do, never seems to end up being true.I don't know what to feel takes so long for these wounds to heal tell me it's not really real. . .
why did I fall for you. . left me holding on by the last thread
watch me burn. . Someday it'll be your turn. . Can't fool me, I can see all the things that you don't want me to see you threw my heart away that's the price that I paid I know it's never fair, promised me . . You'd always be there but you never really cared. . .

I know i cant get him but still i miss him badly. . Anthony. .

2005-05-01T21:38:00.000+08:00

______ Meet ade in da morning to catch our classmates doin their assignment. Den happen to saw some Jean Yip people there. . when to catch up a bit wif Florence. . den was hoping to see Anthony there. . but NO. . his not there. . *sob. . den when to buy tickets for our movie. . we went to catch Coach Carter. .Show was great. .but theres this sick ass beside mi digging his nose and eating at the same time. . cant get his butt on the chair. . moving here and there. . making mi half piss off already. . lucky enough he did not do anything funny if not im gonna punch him upside down i promise. . after that went to catch our next show Creep. . guys let mi tell u. . i strongly dun recommend this show. . it realli make mi and ade feel like vommiting. . everything was so cruel and bloody. . Gosh~. . Half way down the show we left the cinema. . ~yuck. . ade was so funnuy i tell u. . she was alreay half way goin to puke. . den i still tell her i wanna get something to eat. . think she cant eat anithing that is soupy tt day. . hahaha. . funny ar. . tt ger. . forever a lot of unexpected actions and comments. . .

~ just like him

2005-04-20T18:35:00.000+08:00

Saw news about Jones. . newbie singer from S'pore. . find him so so so great. . told Zel that if he happen to promote in S'Pore. . I'M GONNA GO CATCH HIM. . Zel, he realli look like Chris leh. .

~tada! My Hair is done

2005-04-19T17:17:00.000+08:00

Met up wif Ade. . ask her accompany down to Kelly's Salon to dye my hair. . but was kinda worry to go there. . coz it was actualli my 2nd time there. . dun even know where is where. . and where has what. . we r like two missing kids in toa payoh. . .so ade get her nails done. . den when to Mac to had our lunch. . and here it comes. . two kids touring toa payoh trying to find Kelly's Salon. . HaA. . but clever us. . WE FOUND IT. . sat down. . cut. .bleach. .wash. .colour. .wash. . treatment. . and tada. . my new hair style. . .ade same. . doin treatment. . making a fool of herself while having her hair steam. . tryin to perform a lil of so called yoga stuff. . .playful her. . forever like tt . . den proudly walk around wif our new hairstyles . . den went to watch Pacifier. . quite funny. . spend ma day in a kind of wise way. .

U make my day

2005-04-12T19:15:00.000+08:00

I've been waiting for so long. . FINALLY. . u smiled to mi. . Thanks. . u realli make my day. . Never will i forget. . Thanks Anthony. .

~Rainy&Happi Mi

2005-04-06T01:07:00.000+08:00

woke up real early today for my course. . was so dame tired. . felt like sleepin on and on. . as usual ade's dad drove us to skool. . got to learn a new technique today. . den went back to practice. . but seriously. .still doesnt like the feeling when people do make-up on me. . felt so dame weird. . . think i can do a better job myself. . hAaaz. . time passes fast enough. . lesson end. . .went out to realise tt the sky was so dark. . Heavy rain !!!. . hate it. . mi and ade spent so much time in skool waited and waited. . .den i decide to cut my nails real short. . so it will be easier for mi to do my hair course on friday. . becoz the pins and rubber bands are hurtin my poor hands and nails. . felt realli sad whenever i see my nails and hands not in good condition . . do you guys know how much i invest in this nails and hands of mine. .? neh~!. . dun tell u. . ade. .even smarter went to da salon beside our skool to wash her hair. . smart one. . another one enjoy life onli. . after awhile ade's friend came to meet her. . all went home left mi alone. . after my nails are done. . walk alone. . felt veri lonely. . took the train alone too. . how "sweet" rite. . my mood was so low at that point of time. . den when i was about to reach. . Yeah~. . tis call realli brighten my mood. . .guess who. . yeah. . my one and onli fave Blackie. . my best 'girlfriend'. . lolx. . called and ask where i am. . just nice. . i was alone. . so went to meet him at tampines. . tt guy. . gosh~. . forever messing my hair anyhow. . den accompany him for his dinner. . .got so much to tell him. . den went to the supermarket wif him. . he need to buy some stuff. . den found a place. . sat down and chat. . realli loads of stuff to talk and laugh about. . felt so happi to see my blackie. . getting more grown up and handsome. . tis dude here does look a little like Edison alrite. . no kidding. . realli had a great time. . .

i miss it. .

2005-03-30T20:54:00.000+08:00

AaaRrr. . the concert has started. . !!!.. i wanna see David Desrosiers. . dame. . i wanted so badly to see simple plan. . but i cant. . no tickets. . was so dame sad alrite. . its not a everyday chance where by u could actualli catch them on stage. . wat i can do is to sit like a fool trying the mask that angel intro us. . . listening to the music. .blogging. .thinking of David Derosiers. .silly mi. . waiting for da mask to dry. . Haiz. . not realli in da mood to blog. . BYE. . !!

Untitled

2005-03-29T19:20:00.000+08:00

Mix the words up with the actions do it all for your reaction
I'm the girl you never get just quite what you see
When everything I do is only to get tangled up in you
I'm the girl that's sweeping you off your feet
I'm always stuck with these emotions

~rainy days~

2005-03-28T13:03:00.000+08:00

Its been raining for a few days. . hate it. . den was suppose to meet up and do our lashes. .den one after another call and sms to cancel it. . was a little piss off. . do not like ppl to give empty promises. . if u cant make it den dun come out wif the idea of meetin up in the first place. . den log in to msn den saw ade online. . had a little complain session to her den she came up wif the idea of goin bugis to shop. . so i when to prepare. . met up outside. . while in the trian ade was sayin tt Charwin was sick. .so was jokin around in the trian. .(dun tell u wats tt is between mi and ade). . .den when we reach bugis walk around. .guess wat. . we saw Gal. .kind of surprise la. . did not expect to see her. . after that we went to Muji. .tell u wat. . i brought this vegetables juice. .drink it. . at tt point realli feel like dying. smell was sucky . .flavour was so strong. . EeeeE. . .swear not to drink tt again. . den ade came up wif the idea of goin down to Charwin's house to visit him. . so went back to tampines to buy dinner for him. . went to his house. . waited for him to finish his food den we went to the pool side. . at first everything was like so weird. . no one was talkin. . lookin at each other. . at tt point realli feel like doin something but just cant . . dono y. .talk a little . .Ade was smiling all the way. . her signature smile. . HaaZ. . den Charwin went back to take his guitar. . came back and started playin and singing. . cool ya. . my idol ma. . singapore hard to find ok. . lolx. . sick yet can show so much of his talent ah. . while we were all at the playground. .he was singing. .at that point i got realli quiet and felt like dropin some tears. .but cant. . image come first. . haha. . time past fast. . after that i got to rush home to watch my fave japanese drama. . dame. .gettin a cab there is so tough . . so i miss the first part when i got home. . Haiz. . at around 11. . started to watch my Korean drama wif my mum till 2. . while watchin my eyes was like half closin and then there goes my monday. . .

Bad Day

2005-03-24T10:26:00.000+08:00

Gosh~! Felt so sucky today. . Dame! My old illness is back to attack mi again this morning. . got no time to eat my breakfast so onli had my must have COFFEE. . my fave. . and head down to skool. . god. . through out the day was so pain. . felt like scoldin some one. . even after having my lunch the pain is even greater. . was like realli no mood but cant show my anger to my friends. . no matter where i go always hope i could just find a chair or something and just stick my ass there. . after lesson. .ask Ade and Dorine accompany mi go buy Azel's JStar Mag. . "how nice" when i reach there. .its not here yet. . got even more f*** up. . in tt case i gonna make a trip down again tomorrow. . but on our way there . . guess wat. . we saw Allan Wu. . my. . tt guy was quite gd lookin ya. . den end up in tamp. . just reach there and i saw strawberry , zhen and yee bing. . manage to have a quick greeting wif them den when to CS and TM to shop. . Haiz. .